Wednesday, February 11, 2015

The Random Encounter That Wasn't

Maryland Song Sparrow

Yesterday started out horribly.  It was one of those days where you really wished you had a re-do button.  You know the kind of soon as your feet hit the ground from bed in the morning Murphy's Law kicks in, the kids get riled up and make bad choices, nothing goes right.  Heck, it even seems like the pets got in on the act and were not themselves.  I was grumpy, the kids were grumpy, the whole world just seemed off kilter.  Running errands with the kids, who were home from school due to ice, was the last thing I felt like doing, but it had to be off we went.

*pause in my story for a not-so-random-thought*

It is interesting and fascinating to me how God knows me so clearly and knows what I need and when I need it even when I don't know myself.  His timing is always perfect and as I am getting older and since my illness, I have settled in to giving my will over to His and trusting that He has a plan for me and my life, even if I can't see it.  This giving control over to my Creator has not been an easy process for me as I am/was a control freak in every aspect of my life.  But that is a post for another day.

Back to I was grocery shopping with the kids yesterday, still seething with anger at them for grossly misbehaving earlier that morning,  a pop song came on over the store's sound system.  To keep my 7 year old twins occupied during our long shopping trip, my 15 year old daughter began to sing quietly and dance not-so-quietly to the beat.  I love how my teen daughter is so sure of herself and uninhibited even at this very awkward time of life.  Anyway, the twins saw her and joined in joyfully dancing along the aisles and smiling their fool heads off.  Their mood changed immediately and the air seemed to lighten all around me.  Soon I joined in and danced along pushing the cart and I am sure all 4 of us looked like fools acting like we had some semblance of rhythm.

As we came around the corner of the aisle, a woman walked by and caught us dancing.  She smiled a huge welcoming smile and said, "Well, aren't you all just having fun?"  It caught me off guard because not 30 seconds before, we were all grumpy and miserable.  It was true, though, in that moment yes, we were all having fun!

Later, we were at the self check out, I was scanning the groceries, my oldest daughter was bagging, and the twins were being quiet and good watching the packages cruise down the conveyer belt.  I was engrossed in my job of scanning when I heard from the next aisle over a woman's voice.   It was not the woman who had commented on our dancing earlier, it was someone different.

"Excuse me, Ma'am?"
"Yes?" I replied.
"I just wanted to tell you that you have an absolutely beautiful family."

Just wow.
Her words hit me hard.
I realized that my anger from the morning had ruined my whole day up until that point and in that very second, her words brought me back to what is really family and how beautiful they are.  Yes, the kids misbehave.  Yes, they make bad choices.  Yes, I get angry.  But through it all they are beautiful and I am so blessed to have 4 amazing children.

"Well, thank you!" I replied.  I smiled.  "I really needed to hear that today."
"I know." she stated.  Then she smiled, grabbed her groceries and left the store.

Huh, I thought.  That was a random encounter.  How did she know I needed to hear that today?

Perhaps it wasn't a random encounter after all.  Perhaps both the woman who said we looked happy and this woman were not coincidences.  Perhaps God knew I needed to refocus my brain and get rid of my anger and had sent them to me for just that dissipate my anger and refocus on the beauty that was right there before me.

Thank you, God, for knowing me so well and knowing what I need before I do.  You truly are amazing.

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